No one is perfect

Sometimes, the reminder on my left hand tells me I messed up, it tells me I failed, that I cant do anything right. imagine waking up with this weight, try to fall asleep at night bearing this thought... im not looking for pity, not looking for sorrow, I can't explain it, words do not do it justice...

So why write about it? There is a reason for pain, there is a reason for suffering. In some ways, it makes us stronger, it makes us bolder, it builds us up. In other ways, it tears us down, it's a constant nagging, a constant ringing in our ears, a constant reminder...

Life sometimes throws a monkey wrench, it sometimes throws us something unexpected, sometimes for the better, sometimes not. But it is the way we react to the situation that really shows our character, our virtues, who we really are...

What is holding you back? What is stopping you from living your life? Is it just an excuse to say no? Are you not thin enough? Not pretty enough? Not smart enough? We come up with all these lame excuses to say that we can't do it, that it won't work, that we'll just mess up, that we'll fail...

Don't let your situation define who you are, but the way you react to the situation will define who you are. I could of given up, I could of never touched the piano again, I could of never pick the bass up. I could of dropped out of school. I could of said that this is too hard, that there is no point, that God doesn't love me...

I am not perfect. I am not the "standard" of a good person. I have flaws, I have made mistakes, I have regrets, I have failures, I have struggles, I have problems. The list could go on forever telling me my wrongs and faults...

But God...

If I said I never doubted God, I would be lying. If I said I was never mad at God, that too would be a lie. But God sees the bigger picture, God sees a plan that is beyond our imagination. It is easy to praise God in the good times, to serve God when we're happy, when life is going for us. It is a whole lot harder to praise God when our world falls apart, when it just falls all around us. Yet, it is in those places that God can rebuild us stronger, rebuild us higher, rebuild us better. I don't have all the answers, yet I have the faith to make it through the next day...

For the journey today...